knowing ryle's story...

INCURABLE SHIT

2010-06-19T00:31:00.000-07:00

Every time I enter relationships,

this is one of the problems I always face

BEING MOODY

I don't know but I'm really one of those who has bad mood swings

I GET PISSED OFF EASILY

once i heard something pissing, Ill be quiet until my partner started to get pissed too..

Ill try to hide the problem and talk about other topics

this has been MY PERSONAL PROBLEM ever since

I dont know how to deal perfectly with this

neither do i know if i should deal with this singly

I DONT KNOW WHEN CAN I START TO MANAGE MY MOOD

HOPEFULLY AS SOON AS POSSIBLE COZ I ALSO HATE THIS KIND OF ME

IM DONE

2010-05-13T06:39:00.000-07:00

I just made my most stupid act for this year

I fall hard for him again..

Ive wanted us to be together again so badly

We almost made it until her mom and her friend get in the way

For her mom, at first I haven't thought that she dislikes me..

I found it out when i tried to analyze such factors why he suddenly became hesitant to be with me again.. He said that her mom thinks I'm a "happy go lucky girl", I didn't cared at first until I realized maybe it is whats keeping him from pursuing me again.

Next is his friend who is a girl.. I don't know whats going on between them but as far as my woman's instinct is concern,

I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT THERE IS SOME FLIRTING HAPPENING AROUND

As a girl who wants his man to return, you cant blame me for being jealous with that girl especially if your guy tried to hide and lie about their planned meet-up.. After our little fight, we ended up our conversation just like that without any goodbyes

Being depressed, I drank a bottle of beer and cried a bit.. After that, I texted him and said sorry, the only response I had was "i don't want to talk to you yet, we might turn this argument into a bigger one".. I was pissed with his response so I replied "fine then, If you don't want to talk then I don't want to either"

The next morning, I read some messages from him but those were just the same messages he sent me that night before.. I waited for his text the whole day but nothing came. We were both online on facebook and YM but there's no HI neither HELLO

The next day, I just read his post about some angel thing.. Guess he found his angel now.. I couldn't do anything about it. It's not pride thats controlling me, its more of giving up. I love him yes, but I love myself more... Ive tried many times to regain him but I was always left alone by him.

IM TIRED OF BEING HIS OPTION, I WANT TO BE HIS ONLY CHOICE

--au revoir

RYLE

The first encounter :)

2010-01-07T07:25:00.000-08:00

so well, the first date was done :)

It was OK but not unforgettable

just like any other first meetup, everything is unusual and annoying at times

no special topic for a conversation

a little romance and sweetness

i cant really feel anything special between us

nothing intimate for me

i was just surprised with his voice coz he reminds me of my ex :) my suppppper first love *i think*

harhar

i dont know when is our end

but i can feel it coming xDDD

*mukang ako nnman ang mangiiwan

Entering a relationship with someone you barely know

2010-01-02T03:51:00.000-08:00

so i have this guy i liked much

hes cute for me so i added him in one my accounts

he sent a message asking if someone he knows coz i kinda look familiar

then some introduction bout each other pitch in between conversations

he asked for my number and i gave it (of course, crush ko nga eh dba)

things were all fast moving then by Dec 24 evening, naging kami..

so at first, i know very well that this wont work (though i hoped a bit)

the first few days were smooth..

i dont want to control him or anything as of now since we havent met yet (yup its true, were still planning when will we see each other) and i cant still consider this relationship a serious one

I know this will be very hard for me since hes attached to a lot of girls and im still in doubt with his sincerity with this relationship

i dont know how should i deal with this but i hope i can change him kahit onti lang

susubukan kong tumagal sa relationship na toh but i wont promise na magppakatanga ko :)

LOVE IS DIFFERENT FROM STUPIDITY :)

AU REVOIR

---ryLe

still and will always be waiting

2010-01-02T03:18:00.000-08:00

He loved me much before but my love for him was never enough to make us work

After some time, i realized i cant live without him

in that moment, i realized i loved him but i was not ready to admit it to the world

the moment i was ready to face the world with him, hes already with another girl

i thought i could get him back that easy

but i guess i underestimated him that much

a long time has passed but still, the love i have for him remains

i thought he still feels the same for me

but people do really change

he still loves me but he also love other girls now

i don't have the right to be jealous nor to ask him to leave them

all i can do is stay beside him until he realized that i'm still here

i don't know how long can i wait

i don't know when will he realized that i'm still here

as of the moment;

we're happy as friends

AU REVOIR

--ryle

TONETTE'S BDAE... @ LAGUNA

2009-08-21T19:53:00.000-07:00

AUGUST 20, 2009
Tonette's 19th bdae

after drinking last night, i woke up at 4.30 in the morning to attend to my bestfriend's bdae. calltime was 5.30 but i arrived there at almost 6 considering that im the nearest person whose living near the meeting place (such a lazy person). so there, our trip has begun... me and my friend em sat in the front seat of the jeep.. puno na kasi eung luob so we dont have choice.. we arrived early in the resort, pahinga muna at konting asaran sa bdae girl haha den a lil videoke to kill d boredom.. minutes after, we decided to change clothes na then swimming na agad... the water is quite hot but its relaxing anyway so no problem with that.. when tonette's family arrived, ahon muna kami para kumain.. were craving fer some food na rin kasi.. then after having our lunch, back to pool na kami but this time its raining.. rain was not a problem that time coz ok naman combi ng ulan at hotspring.. umuusok usok pa eung pool so sarap lumangoy hehe.. kaso that time, mai kasamang kulog at kidlat.. so eun, lahat kami pinaahon sa pool coz tumatama daw eung kidlat sa tubig *err*.. so istambay muna sa cottage den nung wala na, balik na ulit sa pool.. we went to the part of the resort na tlgang mainit.. at first kala nmin it was off limits kasi wala nman kaming nkktang lumalangoy and kala nmin madumi eung part na eun kasi meron pang chair sa isa sa mga space.. so back to our favorite spot.. langoy langoy ulit then maya maya inuman na :) GSM BLUE na mai pine-orange juice.. 2 bottles eun, eung una marami rami eung umiinom.. mga 10+ so keri lang.. nung malapit na mag 2nd bottle, aiaw na ng mga college friends ni tonette kasi mdio malaio pa eung biahe so alalay lan... so mga kulang kulang 10 nlan kaming umiinom... after maubos, the usual thing.. back to the fav spot xD nung pagod na ulit, pahinga then pagbalik nmen sa cottage, pauwi na mga college friends ni tonette... so hinatid nmin sa labas then direcho na sa pool... maia maia ahon na para uminom ulit... this time, tequila naman :) *el hombre tequila gold* 6 lan kami umiinom kasi eun iba magpphinga na.. sabi nmin kklahatiin lan nmin eung tequila eh kaso muntik nnmin ubusin.. pasaway lan kasi eung old lady na bantay ng resort... errr super arte.. so aiun banlaw na then uwi :) dapat itutuloi namin eung inom @tonette's place but i was too sleepy na that time so umuwi na ko around 8pm :)

(some pics to be uploaded later)

the end...

THANKS TONETTE :-*

AU REVOIR
**ryle

JANINE'S BDAE

2009-08-21T19:33:00.000-07:00

AUGUST 19, 2009
**Janine's 19th Birthday

last thursday (aug.20), we celebrated ja's bdae just like any usual inuman
we started at around 7pm and finished our mess around 12midnight
the foods, drinks, booze and videoke were already prepared when we got there..
the only thing we need to do is sit back, relax and get drunk

one of my professors is drinking with us together with 2 of his friends

kumaen muna kami saglit then inuman na :)
then kantahan kahit mga paos na :))
maia maia nagkatamaran na so dance til we drop nman am drama xD

cute nam mga kalokohan namin sa pagsaiaw ahaha..

around 12, nagpasya narin kaming muwi..

AU REVOIR

**ryle

GRADE CONSCIOUS

2009-08-14T07:53:00.000-07:00

5.00 FAILED

One of the things that scares me a lot is the word "Failed"
I never imagined my life having a failing grade..
and now.. I just failed my Prelim Grade in one of my subjs..

I know its too early to react since i still have the midterms and finals
but i cant help it.. the moment i knew my grade, i was so disappointed with myself

i know that most of the reasons why i failed are my own faults.
i took that subj for granted
i was too lazy to review
i was always too eager to go home because my class starts at 6pm-9pm
i did not consider the fact that it is still one of my requirements

other reasons are merely because of our new policies
our grade is now mainly exam-based
60% DEPARTMENTAL EXAM; 30% QUIZZES; 10% ETC Passing Grade:: 75 :)
Its not impossible to pass BUT its so hard to pass!!!
not only in this subject but also with the other subjects

I hope Ill do good this time..
bye vices for now and hello books

argh... that grade is putting me into great pressure

oh well... now i have to be grade conscious because if not..
i surely know what will happen..

AU REVOIR
--ryle

LEMME INTRODUCE MIISELF

2009-08-03T08:05:00.000-07:00

imma just give some quick facts bout me

MARYLINE FIESTA BERCADEZ

* --ryle, layn, nozente, layntot
* 18 years old
* living in Pasay City
* typical girl
* "galaera"
* FAR EASTERN UNIVERSITY student
* currently taking up Internal Auditing

* friendly
* chatty type of person
* wicked in my own ways

LOVES
* coffee!! hell yeah
* alcohols
* mirumo de pon
* anything thats black and cute
* sweets
* pictures (im a camwhore babe)
* all genres of music
* flip flops
* shawarma
* pizza
* cd's
* YOU

HATES
* losers
* liars
* havin lots of chores
* crying

**ill just have a more detailed introduction later....

--sleepy

AU REVOIR

--ryle